I wandered into the kitchen, they were eating breakfast and merrily chatting away, I grabbed a bowl of cereal and sat across from them, so that I could watch them, and started eating silently.
I was quite amused with the conversation, Forrest and Melon bickering over something that happened when they were teenagers, so now I know which one is Melon, even thought there names kind of fitted them, Lilac obviously being the purple one. I am not sure why I had not really asked Forrest much about the girls, I didn't expect them the be "uglies", if you could call them that, they both had the tell tale over sized ears, but neither of their faces showed it much.
Forrest: "So sleepyhead are you awake yet??"
Lyric: "No, not yet."
Forrest knew better than to talk to me first thing in a morning when I was not properly awake. I actually was awake, I just told him I wasn't, knowing he would leave me alone. I was not quite ready to start socializing with the girls just yet. I noticed Melon, she had a little flap, like she did not know what to do with my arrival, she got off her chair looked around her then sat back down and started eating, staying quiet and looking a little embarrassed. Lilac on the other hand never stopped chattering, she was now telling Forrest what she does and doesn't eat as she is a vegetarian, but her gaze never left me once.
I finished my breakfast quite quickly as I had stayed quiet and was not talking like they were. Forrest and the girls were now nattering away again, their bowl still half full of cereal. So I cleared away my bowl and went back upstairs to get dressed and to get myself ready to face the rest of the day.
Lilac: "Is he always that quiet - I thought he was very rude, he never even said hello, or is he up himself because he is famous??!!"
Melon: "Shut up Lilac!!!"
Forrest: "He's a little grumpy first thing, he is best left alone until he is fully awake, besides he does have a bit of a problem being around women."
Lilac: "Why??"
Forrest: "It's a long story, anyway it's for him to tell you not me, he will be fine when he comes back down."
The rest of the day was not actually so bad, we did get to do a lot of talking, the girls seemed to be alright, although I did find Lilac to be a little on the strange side, sitting in the hot tub fully dressed, but we later found out that she actually has the insane trait. Talk - she never stopped talking, Melon could hardly get a word in, Lilac was doing all the talking for them both.
Something else I observed about them, they did not seem to have a very close relationship, watching them together, they could just well have been good friends, there was no contact between them, no special looks, not intimacy that even indicated that they were a married couple. They constantly snapped and sniped at each other, and how they were sitting, the distance between them could not be any wider, I could see a lot of tension there. Whereas me and Forrest are quite the opposite, we have a very touchy feely relationship, we don't leave each other alone for very long, I bet that must have been very awkward for them to watch.
We did most of our talking in the hot tub, ate then spent the rest of the night messing about in the garden, the girls took an instant liking to the water slide, Granddad even came out and joined in, he had kept pretty much out of the way all day.
The girls stayed over, they slept in Piper and Brandy's old room. They went up to bed a lot earlier than we did, which gave me and Forrest time to talk alone.
Forrest: "So what do you think of the girls?"
Lyric: "I suppose they are not so bad."
Forrest: "Lilac is a little strange, not Mel's normal type, but she seems nice enough."
Lyric: "Do you think you could live with them?"
Forrest: "I know I can live with Mel, I have done, I should be asking you that question."
Lyric: "Is it me, or does their relationship not look too good?."
Forrest: "I noticed that too, they don't seem very close do they."
Lyric: "That worries me, do you think their relationship could survive this baby thing?"
Forrest: "I don't know, I want to talk to her alone anyway, I can see she is not happy."
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Out in the garden I was enjoying the peace and quite, I had forgotten how much of a headache women can be with there constant chatter and Lilac definitely was like a stuck record going on and on till she made your brain ache. Lyric had an audition at the warehouse a private club in town, he took the girls with him, dropping them home on the way, they had work later like I did, and I don't think Lyric could wait to get back to work.
Cain: "So how is it going with the girls??"
Forrest: "Good I think, but we are both worrying about their relationship, it doesn't look too strong."
Cain: "Not everyone is like you and Lyric, so open with their affection, some people like to be a little more priviate with it."
Forrest: "I know Mel probably better than I know myself, I've seen her in past relationships and this relationship looks far from stable and she is far from happy with it, our worry is that their relationship might not survive a baby."
Cain: "You need to worry about yourselves and let the girls worry about themselves, I'm sure they wouldn't be entering into this if they didn't think it could work, would it be such a great deal if their relationship broke down as far as the child is concerned, as long as the mother stayed here with Lyric and the child, would that really matter in the long run?"
Cain: "You know you are never going to know if the four of you can live together and make this work unless you try it, Forrest, I think you should ask them to move in on a trial period, see how it goes, if everything is alright after a few months then talk about a baby."
Forrest: "I think it might be a little too soon for Lyric!!"
Cain: "Then maybe you should just take the initiative and ask them to move in, Lyric is just going to keep dragging his feet, I know I would in his shoes, I actually think this was a very good idea. You and Melon knowing each other so well is probably the perfect solution for everyone, if this doesn't work nothing will other than me doing it for him and I am not going to be around for ever."
I think the old man was probably right, meeting up with the girls here and there was only going to prolong the agony, the quicker we found out if we could live with them the quicker we could get this baby - The girls relationship is really their business and again he is right, it wouldn't cause a major problem if they did break up. Lyric is probably going to kill me, but I am sick of having this hanging over our heads all the time!!
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When I woke up Forrest was lay on the bed next to me reading a book. I must have had plenty of sleep as I felt wide awake and in a good mood, I was not having my usual early morning grumpy session.
Lyric: "What are you reading?"
Forrest: "Just a book to earn me some sucking up points with coach."
Lyric: "Put it down, and why are you dressed for work already."
Forrest: "It's nearly midday, I thought you was never going to wake up."
Forrest: "Not now Lyric, I need to talk to you before I leave for work, its important."
Lyric: "I am sure it can wait till later."
Forrest: "It can't!!"
Lyric: "I think it can."
Forrest tried to object again but I cut his words off when I started to kiss him. His body stiffened, as he was still trying to fight me, but as I carried on kissing him, I felt his body suddenly go limp in my arms and I knew he had caved in, it is always so easy to get my own way with him.
I did not hear the door open, all I heard was "Just getting your washing." It was Lilac. Shocked I flew off the bed, what on earth was she doing here and why hadn't she knocked, if she had been just a few minutes later ..... OMG!!!
Lyric: "Lilac - WHAT THE ......!!??
Lilac: "Keep your hair on Lyric, I'm just getting the washing!!"
Lyric: "Don't you know how to knock - this is our bedroom for berries sake!!!"
Lilac: "I didn't know you were in here did I, besides do you two ever stop mauling each other!!" she snapped back
Forrest grabbed me which stopped me from losing my temper with Lilac
Forrest: "This is what I needed to talk to you about."
Lyric: "What is she doing here Forrest??"
Forrest: "Don't get mad, I asked the girls to move in just on a trial basis."
Lyric: "What??!! Without discussing it with me first?"
Forrest: "Me and your Granddad were talking yesterday and ........"
Lyric: "Oh, I might have know he would have something to do with this, where is he??"
Forrest: "No Lyric ......."
I had already gone and I wasn't listening to him shouting after me - telling me not to take it out on my Granddad, it wasn't his fault. I stormed downstairs all guns blazing - but all it took was Granddad to yell at me to shut me up, even though he is now old and frail, deep down I am still scared of his authority.
Lyric: "You had no right ..........!!"
Cain: "Come back when you have calmed down, then we will talk!!"
I suddenly felt like I was being rail roaded into doing something I didn't want to do, between them they had rushed into something that I was not ready for, and I was the one who had to do this not them - me!! I was having a huge panic attack but hadn't realize it yet.
Forrest: "Lyric, I'm sorry!!"
Lyric: "Just go to work Forrest."
Forrest: "I'm not leaving you like this, I won't be able to concentrate on my game."
Lyric: "Sod your game!!! I can't talk to you right now, you have made me very angry!!"
Forrest: "I know and I'm sorry!!"
He started to kiss me and I didn't stop him, but that doesn't work on me like it does with him.
Lyric: "Don't think you are getting round me that easily, now go to work before I lose my temper!!"
There was a quiet knock on the bedroom door What now??!!!
Melon: "Lyric, it's Mel, can I come in?"
Lyric: "knock yourself out, everyone else is doing as they please today!!"
Melon: "Lilac told me what happened, I am sorry, we haven't got off to a very good start have we?!"
Lyric: "Not really but that's what happens when people rush into things!!"
Even though Mel was not actually doing anything wrong I was getting angrier by the minute, I really don't know what was wrong with me, or even why I was getting so worked up.
Melon: "You are not happy about us being here - do you want us to leave?"
Lyric: "You are here now, you may as well stay, and its not you personally and I'm sorry if I made you feel uncomfortable, I am angry with Forrest for not discussing it with me first, I am actually sick of having my life arranged for me - none of this is your fault so please don't worry!!"
Melon: "I was worried, I thought Lilac might have messed things up, I really want this baby and I don't want her spoiling things like she normally does."
We actually chatted for quite a while and I found myself beginning to really like Melon, I could quite easily see why her and Forrest were best mates. She actually made me feel a little easier about some things, but still my head was all over the place.
I found myself down in the basement drinking - never a good idea.
I am not really thinking rationally anymore, having a panic attack, feeling like everything is closing in on me, it scared me and I felt suffocated - I wanted to lash out I just wanted it all to stop. There is only one way to make it stop. Get rid of the problem once and for all - then it would stop.
I went looking for Mel, she didn't hesitate when I told her what I wanted to do, she was maybe a little surprised, but she wanted a baby much more than I needed one, so she was quite happy to try now. I really wasn't thinking straight, I thought if I got this ordeal over with - everything would be plain sailing after that, I thought I could do it but I was wrong.
As soon as she started to kiss me I knew this was not happening, I think that's when I came to my senses. It doesn't seem to bother her, she is passionately kissing me, but it sure is bothering me - I could feel the panic welling up inside of me - I tried to move her off me gently, but I think she miss read what I was doing, she reduced the distance between us and one of her hands started traveling across my chest and stomach, that was it, I pushed her off me forcefully, I couldn't take it anymore.
Lyric: "STOP - Mel - Stop!!"
Melon: "What's wrong?"
Lyric: "I need a minute - I can't breath"
The second time we tried, it felt worse, I had stupidly rushed into this, I should have listened to my own advice, I couldn't even get past her kissing me I had no hope of ever making a baby at this rate. Now I had given her false hope and I could see how upset she was and this made me feel even worse.
Lyric: "I'm sorry Mel, I can't do it!!"
I was trying to run off my frustration but it was not working, I started to run faster and push myself further, I wanted it to hurt, I wanted the physical pain to replace my mental pain, it was the only way I was going to clear my head. I had been really stupid and I have probably just made it a whole lot harder for myself.
The muscles in my legs were just starting to hurt when I heard Forrest shout me, but I ignored him and began to run even faster, his timing stinks I didn't want to stop it didn't hurt enough yet.
Forrest: "Lyric STOP THAT!!"
After he yelled again I stopped.
Forrest: "Why are you being such an idiot, you haven't worked out for ages, going at it like that you are going to do yourself a serious injury!!"
Forrest: "What did you do to Mel, she is in pieces in there??!!"
Lyric: "I actually didn't do anything."
Forrest: "Well you must have done something, I've never seen her so upset and I can't get anything out of her other than "Lyric - ask Lyric" - so come on what did you do??"
Lyric: "Nothing - she's upset because I couldn't do it, I tried but I just couldn't do it."
Forrest: "What couldn't you do?"
Lyric: "What do you think !! There is only one reason for her living here."
Forrest: "Oh!!"
Lyric: "And before you start kicking off, I don't want to hear it!!"
Forrest: "Why would you even try to do that ...... after this morning?"
Lyric: "Anger, frustration - what you lot have driven me to - I just want it all over and done with I don't know how much longer I can take having this baby thing hanging over my head!!"
He put his arms around me and held me tight, I could feel the pain in my chest again, but it wasn't panic this time, it is a feeling I get quite often, I love Forrest so deeply it physically hurts sometimes and I think today's attempt with Mel failed so miserable mostly because of the way I feel about him. I doubted that I will ever be able to do it, I felt like I was betraying him and that is something I never wanted to do.
Lyric: "I am not sure I am ever going to be able to do it."
Forrest: "You will, you just need to give yourself a little more time."
Lyric: "One more thing before we go inside Forrest."
Forrest: "I know I'm still in trouble from this morning!!"
Lyric: "Yes, you are but that can wait."
Forrest: "Well what then?
Lyric: "Forrest, will you Marry Me?"
I know I've made some terrible mistakes today but getting engaged to Forrest is definitely not one of them, he is the only right thing in my life right now.
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Wow! Lots of emotions being tossed around in his head. Hopefully things work out and a baby will be on the way soon.
ReplyDeleteWe will get there eventually - lol :) Lyric seriously kicked up a fuss when it came to baby making with Melon.
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