Ugly Wishes: Chapter 15 - Gen 6

It took me a while to get over Granddads death, I didn't really want to do much of anything so I just moped about the house doing little or nothing. When I started to feel better I started singing around the house until I was ready to face the world.

The first day out - it really has been a long time since I last sang in the park, before the triplets were born, they will soon be having a birthday and becoming children - I never planned on taking this much time out!! I saw Aunt Dixie and Uncle Brice in the park - they now have 4 children, all with Granddads hair except for Juanna - seeing the reminder of Granddad upset me a little.

I was quietly reading a book outside when I spotted Mel wandering around, she had been pretty distant lately so I thought I would tackle her over it, I am not sure if Forrest had noticed but she seemed to have been going out of her way to avoid the both of us.

Lyric: "I want a word!!"
Melon: "What's up?"
Lyric: "You tell me - you are the one trying your damnedest to avoid us."
Melon: "You are imagining things."
Lyric: "No I am not and I am going to get very angry with you if you don't tell me what is wrong, I am sick of you fobbing me off when you haven't been yourself for quite a while now, there is tension in this house and I don't want the kids to notice it."
Melon: "I'm sorry, its just me and Lilac, I think it's finished between us and its getting me down a little."
Lyric: "I'm sorry about you and Lilac, really I am, but Mel that doesn't explain why you are avoiding me and Forrest or why you are pulling faces at us every time you see us together!!"
Melon: "I can't stand watching you two together!!"
Lyric: "Why??"

She just stood there not answering, I could see the tears welling up in her eyes.

I hugged her, and it was only ever meant to be a friendly hug but she pulled me in real close and held me for ages like she needed a hug - I guessed she was hurting because of Lilac, so I let her hold me - or was I holding her, I really didn't realize what was going on.

She then whispered something in my ear - WHAT?! - shocked I thought I must be hearing things so I didn't react straight away to what I thought she had just said.

Lyric: "What did you just say??!!"
Melon: "I think you heard me alright."
Lyric: "But you can't!!"
Melon: "Why can't I!!
Lyric: "Because ..... because you just Can't!! I'm ..... you're ...... HELL!!!"

It hit me, she has just told me she loves me and all I could think about was our nice little plan had just slapped me in the face - what about the kids!!??

Lyric: "Please tell me you are joking - you know you've just "F***ed it all up!! I thought Lilac would be the one to mess it all up - not you - WHY???!!!"
Melon: "I didn't ask for this to happen, I've tried to fight it but I can't!!"
Lyric: "What about the kids - this is going to mess everything up for them - I never wanted them to have the life I had - they need both parents - now how can we carry on with this??"

Melon: "Lyric, forget I ever said anything!! I won't let it affect the kids I promise"
Lyric: "How can I forget it - can you?? Forrest - what the hell is he going to say when he finds out."
Melon: "Don't tell him - he doesn't need to know - nobody does - I should have kept my mouth shut."
Lyric: "You couldn't though could you - I've seen the signs for a while although I never imagined it was this, you have been letting it show, I noticed, how long before he does and I can't lie to him - its too late now I know how you feel."

Now what the hell are we going to do?? This was definitely one of the things that we were confident would not happen - what was it that Forrest said - "they are gay, we are gay, its not like any of us are going to go falling for each other" - yeah right - how on earth did this happen anyway - it's not like I've encouraged her so where has this come from??!!

She totally floored me and I didn't know what to think - I was scared that this was going to spoil everything, that we would not be able to live together like we planned to - the last thing I wanted was to be fighting with Mel over the kids. I didn't know how to tell Forrest so I didn't say anything. I was just going to let it ride and see what happened - I guess I was hoping it would just go away.

The triplets had their birthday, we had a party for them and I invited the family but not my mother, I doubted she would turn up anyway. Melon made me a little mad by standing back and not getting involved in them blowing out the candles on their birthday cakes. I think she made it pretty obvious that something is wrong between us, she avoided speaking to me all night.

We had quite a few uninvited guests at the party - family ghosts, quite a few of them came over to grab the birthday cake.

If Forrest noticed the tension between me and Melon he never said anything. I think he might have been a little preoccupied with the ghosts and autograph hunting, but he is still to hunt down the elusive Marty Keaton, I have not seen his ghost out for years and Forrest was yet to get his autograph or even see him.

I really can not believe what I am about to do - this woman is a total fruit cake!!! I maybe should have second thoughts about even talking to Forrest and Lilac about having a child together, especially after Melons bombshell, but it is their choice to make and not mine. Melody had phoned me to tell me their names were at the top of the list and they would be contacted next week about their AI. It might be better for us all if Forrest still refused to do it.

Forrest straight away hesitated.

Lilac: "Forrest you promised!!"
Forrest: "I didn't promise anything - I said I would think about it."
Lyric: "So you are still not interested in having your own child?"
Forrest: "No not really."

Lyric: "This is your last chance and the only chance you will EVER get of having your own child, Melody will not be happy if you cancel this then change your mind at a later date - I doubt after this time she will do this favour for us again!!."
Forrest: "You and Mel could use this place again."
Lyric: "NO WAY - we have 3 kids what do we need any more for?"
Lilac: "PLEASE Forrest!!"
Forrest: "Ok Ok - I'll do it even if it is just to shut you up!!"

My mind was swimming - there were also alarm bells ringing - this could be a big mistake tying us to the girls even more than we already were - if Melon causes problems with her feelings - our whole situation could become very complicated and I had visions of it ending badly. But I had no right to stop Forrest and Lilac having a child of their own when the option was there for them - I was just surprised that Forrest caved in and said he would do it, even if he does not seem to be doing it for the right reasons.

Now I am totally paranoid of anything that Melon does. I go to the park to do some playing for tips while Forrest is at work just to get me out of the house. I had hardly been there for long, chatting and signing a few autographs when Melon rolls up with the kids - very clever I thought.

I sent the kids off to play on the playground.

Lyric: "What are you playing at?"
Melon: "Bringing the kids to the park, what do you think I am doing?"
Lyric: "This late at night when they should be in bed - when you normally wouldn't!!"
Melon: "It's the weekend, where is the harm?"
Lyric: "I think you know what I'm thinking Melon - you need to back off, I can't deal with this!!"

I start singing and Melon gets into the hot tub and starts to play around with some purple fella who I can not see I've seen before, right in front of me she is putting on a performance and if she is doing it for my benefit, she is wasting her time!! Or am I just being paranoid again??!!
Then Forrest turns up, great!!

I thought Forrest was going to get into the hot tub with Melon, but he seemed to change his mind and just stood there watching what was going on, I could see the look on his face - He didn't look amused. The kids appeared they had finished playing, I think they were getting tired - it was way past their bedtime.

Melon got out of the hot tub and she and Forrest started having cross words - I was dreading what might be coming but whatever they said to each other Forrest didn't say anything to me about it, the six of us went home together in silence.

The next day I was out in the garden playing the guitar and singing for the kids. Melon came out and interrupted me - I thought maybe she wanted to talk, but no ......

She just started flirting with me

I was stunned - why the hell was she even doing this for??? I think our attempts at baby making should have told her all she would want to know about me - I am gay - I love Forrest and there is no way on this planet that she would ever get what she wants from me!!!